Thanks for responding Weeping, I haven't been seeing a therapist in the last month. We just moved across country so I've been trying to get new doctors set up. The hallucinations stopped when my doc put me on Wellbutrin. He didn't know about the hallucinations because I hadn't told anyone, partially because I thought I was dealing with them well enough off meds and partially because I thought some of them were 'normal', like the voice. The doc added the dose of Wellbutrin to my Zoloft to help even out my mood and bump up my energy level. I'm so glad you mentioned the Matrix, cause I've been trying to figure out a way to process these feelings. Somehow I know that this life is real (contrary to the movie), but if my senses have all lied to me in the past, how do I know I can trust them now.
I also, sometimes wonder if I was just imagining hallucinations I've had in the past, especially ones when I was younger, but I can't figure out why I would have, like you said, the possibility of getting attention, but that seems irrational since I was too ashamed and scared to tell anyone what I was seeing so I didn't get ANY attention for them.