I'm identifying with what you wrote too, uhg. It's confusing because to get over depression, I think you're supposed to do more of what you authentically feel like doing, but what I immediately, authentically feel like is often not what any common sense would say is good for me. Like eating too much instead of going for a walk. And for most of us, there's plenty we HAVE to do whether we want to or not. No one will say to break the status quo and do what you feel like to the extent that you break your current habits and routines that work- hygiene, showing up to whatever obligations you have, etc. Maybe you could ask your t how to figure out the balance and then come fill us all in.

IDK, I think stopgap fixes are probably good if they don't cause other problems. If you can't afford to be buying yourself something, or if you can't afford to be eating too much, they aren't the best fixes. Going for walks or whatever kind of exercise you can do is probably good. It forces you to pay more attention to what's going on around you. Unless you already do that a lot. Ygrec's suggestion of traveling usually helps me too, except if I was out of work I wouldn't be able to afford to travel. I think an environmentally friendly "trip" on foot to a part of your town/woods/field/city/wherever-you-live that you don't usually go to can help. I like riding the local public bus for entertainment and a different view than I usually get once in a while. (That's since I don't live in a place where I normally can ride it anymore.)

I have become moody sometimes like my Mom. Couples t helped me realize it. I know I don't want to be mean and loose my temper at people like she did. I'm glad I'm trying to change it and not doing it to kids (since I don't have any) like she did. It totally sucks to see that in myself. But better to see it and fix it I hope. I guess you aren't doing that to others since you're single, but I wonder if you're doing it to yourself.