Dear Ruben, I understand how it could seem easier to die than to believe what was happening to you. Even knowing what your dad had done to you, for him to come into hospital & actually want & try to murder you is just too must for a mind to take in. I can easily see how it would seem as if it had to be a dream. I don't think you ought to feel badly for your reaction. Like the others, I think it's a normal reaction for about the strangest thing that can happen to a person.

The more you are able to talk about your feelings about what's happened, the better it will be in the long run. That's true for your mom and your siblings too. All of you need to get all of this out in the open, including all your feelings, and understand that while what you've been through isn't normal, your reactions & feelings are ones that most people would have. None of you should go through life feeling that you are the sick or criminal one here. Your father is the one who caused all this. Only your father is to blame.

As everyone has told you, we remain here for you, Ruben, to listen. We hope and pray that the right people are there with you to keep you safe & to give you the mental, emotional, and physical strength to get through this.

We haven't forgotten that you're fighting leukemia. You need to focus energy there as well. We'll be sending prayers for that too! Your guardian angel, if you believe in such things (I do ), has sure been working overtime.

Gentle hugs to you, RubenRawr.