twenty years is a long time to battle an eating problem. i feel for you.
there are setbacks, and slips, and it's hard to know if we actually HAVE made progress or not. my dr. my family dr, not my psychiatrist, recommened an ABA group we have here-Anorexics and Bulemics Anonymous. i said i don't, because of what i'm following now. there's no way i restrict myself, and don't have bulemia, either. the running part is
something i've enjoyed for a few yrs. now. i don't feel i am "purging" by doing it, but i love how it makes me feel. i would like to feel the eating stuff is all behind me, because i haven't counted calories for 10 days now, but my husband is cautioning me that a habit so long practiced, doesn't get broken easily. but maybe since this is something different, i just might be free from it. yes, my weight is well below what is considered healthy, but i don't know what i should do about it. sometimes i wonder if i will have health consequences. thank you for listening to my problems. i hope i'm considerate of yours as well.