((((sabby))))

I hope that your appointment goes well Tuesday and that they are able to give you something that will work and not make you sick. I know that you said you forget your meds often even with your meds right there in two places where you can see them. I am not sure if this will help but maybe setting the meds the night before next to your coffee cup that I know you never go without in the morning would remind you to take them.

Maybe even a sign next to your bed and on the cabinet that says in big letters, "Don't forget to take meds." Sounds silly and maybe even stupid but it can help. I know that you have told me to hang post-it notes on my mirror and around my apartment of the positives so that I can see them and hold onto them. I see that as helping you too. Maybe even one on the bathroom mirror as I know that you are in there every morning and night. If you have to write a schedule so that when you are in the bathroom you will be reminded every day of taking them and the time might click.

Put a note right next to your computer so that each morning when you get on it is right there for you to see it. Hang it above on the wall so that you cannot miss it. Then you would also see it at night right before you go to bed as a reminder to take your meds. Do whatever you have to do to remind yourself. Even after you start the insulin, it is going to be very important to take it every time you need to, this could also be a reminder for that. Even if it is silly or stupid it works and it will help you to remember.

You said something that maybe is important as you have said it to us many times:
If you do not take care of yourself first then you are not going to be able to give care and love and complassion to anyone else. Maybe there is something deeper you have not looked at and maybe that is something to look at. Possibly you are spreading yourself too thin trying to be for everyone and that could be contributing too. Your schedule is very busy and takes its toll. Be kind to yourself and do for yourself what you would do for someone else.

Take time for you, things can always wait but you cannot. Start walking a little at a time. I know it is hard at first but once you do it a few times it will become habit. You do not have to start with a far distance. Start with just walking to the mailbox each day to get the mail, that is something you could easily do and it is a distance down there. It is important to start with the little things first because those are the things that we can control and do. Once you do that then you can add on to more. You could even walk down there a couple of times and it would make you feel better, and the more you do it the more you will want to do it.

You said to give you a kick in the bottom, well that would be hard unless you lay down and roll over so I could. lol (My legs do not move the way they used to.) But seriously, you have to take the small steps that will help you. Doing one thing to help yourself no matter how small it may be is a start. Only in taking that first small step can we build on. We do care and are listening. Please let us know how your appointment goes on Tuesday. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps


ps/ And yes, my littles are a bad influence and will have to stop getting you things you should not have. Working on that, or trying. My bad.