Thank you for your responses, everyone. I just have myself in a uproar. T asking me what I want to start focusing on in my sessions, is making me feel like she is getting tired of my case. March will be 2 years that I'm in therapy with her. I feel like I am not doing the work that I could/should be doing. I made up a reason to text her today just to connect (which I regret doing now). She didn't respond negatively-as I was just confirming that I can make an appt we scheduled. she responded -no problem. but then Instead of leaving it at that- I went onto text more and I told her In the text that I need my sessions to be structored more, but I also need a little wiggle room. She didn't respond at all to that, but I am not upset about it either. I think I might be transferring a little bit, (Like wishing she were my mom) but I am always so mindful that this is a theraputic relationship-and that there are boundaries. Perhaps that may be something that is holding up my therapy though- Maybe I am spending so much time trying to be mindful that this is a T relationship, that its holding up my trauma processing.

I don't know..I'm just spilling out whats on my mind. Is this all normal thinking?