Ugh. I just talked to him. He said he doesn't know if he wants to apply. I carried all of the expenses for 3 years when he was depressed and didn't work -- I don't want to have to do that again. I pay too much in taxes to do it again.

He also clammed up when I tried to talk to him about it. I was careful to use my "I" statements and express that I feel like I'm really in the dark about what he wants to do. He visibly got angry that I was trying to talk about it. All this in front of the cleaning lady, although having her there prevented him from erupting.

I am so frustrated. I can't talk to him about any of this