I've been crying all day. I can't stop. I just want to go home. I keep asking and they keep saying no. and then S comes in and says oh it seems like you're pissed off. of course I'm ****ing pissed off! S says I have to be in a course and have friends and be happy before I can go home. but I don't want to start a course because then I'll be here for a year. Mum said that if I'm seeming a lot better I could come home after Christmas but S said I couldn't.

I'm so mad right now. not only can I not go home now S said I can't go to bed because it's too early.