Can'tExplain...I usually own up to mistakes fairly easily, even sometimes things I didn't do. Habitual "sorry" person..ugh. Anyways, the thing that's not my style is canceling then uncanceling....being wishy washy. I just don't want to drive him crazy with that kind of thing.

Update... I canceled my next appt with T as well. I probably will go back, but I don't see how I can get anything accomplished with this hateful feeling in my heart. I am afraid I would say something mean to him. That's a whole other issue, the fact that I am non-confrontational to a fault. When I get hurt I always pull way back, and that's what I am doing. As bad as that it, it's an insticntive behavior I can't seem to stop.