Hi Rhapsody,
I don't know your whole situation, but I am sorry that you are feeling "lost" again. I hope you feel better, and anything I can do to help, just holler! Or pm me, that would probably be better .

I know what it's like to have panic attacks, and the fact that you didn't have them while you were away makes me curious. If you could avoid having them at home that would be great! Is there something triggering your attacks at home? You mentioned being deeply wounded and having unresolved feelings, which is a surefire gateway for panic attacks. I don't really know what else to say except I hope you feel better, and if you ever want to talk I am here, as are all the other wonderful people on this site. Take care.

Hugs,
Sujin