Thanks open eyes.. that's a nice site. I'm going to go to the doctor today and finally attemp to get myself back into therapy at least so I can have somone there to talk to about these issues.. unfornately my family isn't good enough to talk to about these issues due to a lack of understanding of what's going on or even listen for that matter. Thank you for reading and understanding it really means a lot to me. :-)

-Singularis