Well sweetie, I don't have any self esteem at all so if this thread can help me and also can help others here it would be just great.

When you wrote this:

my self-esteem is directly tied to accomplishment and productivity "

It's the word " directly " that have puzzle me a bit. If it's only in your work that you gain self esteem, pushing youself always and always, maybe there is a reason why you do this. I mean like a "hidden reason" that maybe yourself are not aware off.

But looks who is talking here! lol

Thank you!