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Originally Posted by Singularis
I've been diagnosed with ptsd and schizaffective disorder for about a year and a half now, but I've been off ativan and all other meds for around 8 months because I had it in my head I was fine. And lately I'm definately realizing I'm not and haven't been this whole time, which is embarrising and scary. If the auditroy hallucinations weren't bad enough the ptsd has gotten worse... I think..
So basically:
I've been having flashbacks a lot of memories from the past that aren't traumatic, from very general triggers (commercials, music, smells) I get really anxious, scared, and freeze up and feel like I'm there all over again and find myself saying whatever I was thinking or saying at that exact moment. Just as if it were traumatic like other flashbacks. People have been noticing and its getting harder to make up excuses about what I was saying. I'm not sure if this is common.
Has anyone else had full fledged flashbacks of non-traumatic moments?
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actually around here where I live and work the mental health community believes its completely normal to have memories / flashes of memories / picture like or sensory memories.
I have loads of non traumatic flashes of memories. just this morning I was pouring my morning coffee and the image of my mother sitting at the breakfast table drinking her morning coffee came to mind. driving to work this morning my wife was talking to me and something she said about the river we were passing reminded me of our standing at the rail looking at the niagra falls during our vacation. this weekend while walking with my full grown dog he started doing this excited sidewards walk that reminded me of how he used to friskily bob all over the place when he played.
every body has flashes of non traumatic memories though for those who have only had memories of trauma it can be confusing and scary to be normal again. I remember the first time I had a good memory flash /image in my head about a family member who had abused me. I ran to the phone and called my therapist and psychiatrist worried that my meds may not be working. they both calmed me down and took the time to explain to me that its normal to remember the good times and its normal to have flashes of memories about the good times.
ever since then every day I am remembering more and more of the good times that were had during my childhood instead of focusing / flashing on the bad, and its no longer scarey for me to remember the good times. someday you too will be ok with remembering the good times. Until that day comes just take it one day at a time and remember to breath, and keep in contact with your treatment providers, they can help you through this scary time of breaking through to the good times.