I feel alone. I have thoughts about being bullied and picked on. I have even been in denial that I was being bullied. The last time I had thoughts were about infidelity committed by other women who are or were married. I have thoughts about extreme infidelity. I even look for extreme things. But this time, I don't have any compulsions due to the bullying thoughts. I feel so frustrated that they won't go away and they have been harder to deal with. Has anyone else had any thoughts about feeling alone due to bullying thoughts? I am a Christian and I feel like such a weak and ineffective person and it is like my past is catching up with me. I have had feelings of guilt because I didn't stand up for myself and now I am afraid of what others think. Am I alone in this?