I am feeling so alone right now and I can't get into the chat room....stupid dial-up. I am at a friends house, but she is gone to work right now and I am feeling like there is this huge empty hole in my heart. I just feel like I am not really sure it is worth living and yet I know that I have to. I really don't know how to tell her that I am feeling this way either. I keep getting asked if I am ok troday...I must look really bad 'cause people usually don't ask me unless I look horrid. I feel like my body weighs a thousand pounds and that nothing I eat fills me or even comes close to touching my hunger. I giess I should just go to bed or at least get ready for bed as my friend will be home soon, and I am not sure how much longer I can hold myself together.

Well thanks for being my vent tonight...I know I won't get to actually talk to anyone tonight, but just having told someone helps.

Thanks.... hope to be back in chat soon.
Dar