i just need to vent and i have never had anyone to talk to about my issues.

i have always been overweight. i was about 15 i am now 22. am 5'8'' so i dnt look that fat. i lost a lot of it thru bulemia. i would bing on food and then throw up right after i did it for about 2 years. i would also starve myself my lowest weight was because of bulemia. now that i am lower weight i still want to lose more. i dnt feel satisfied with my weight i try to work out everyday. i want to eat healthier but i always go for the junk food and the calorie high and the carbs. after i eat them i feel so shity and when i dont work out i feel so anxious.

i would love to go to a gym and eat healthier but i always give in to the unhealthy things. i believe i stopped the bulemia due to taking birth control pills other wise i would still do it. i still get the urge but fight it.

i kno am pretty i kno i can b pretty but i feel i can be better than what i am now.

i want to go a day without having to worry about what i ate today and how much calories i took in and not having to worry about if i gained weight.

just wanted to share thanks for listening