I knew right when I said that I didn't want to talk about it that I was setting myself up for unhappiness. I knew he wouldn't push me. I knew I needed to ask for what I needed.

What I should have done at that point was say what I was thinking, which was "Argh! Why did I just say that?! That is not what I want to say!" Instead I just sat there with my heart pounding, feeling paralyzed and unable to do anything. And when we were scheduling our next session he mentioned termination which is bothering me now too. Blah.