Rueben, you need to talk about how all this is taking on a toll on you and some things need to be eased up. You should really have a therapist with you that can help you learn how to relax.

I am sorry your having nightmares, maybe they can give you something to help you sleep better at night? Another thing you can ask for is the nurse to bring warmed up blankets.
Warmth on the body helps it relax, as the body cools back down it relaxes, I use that all the time. So talk to the nurse about the warmed up fresh blankets, they are really comfy.

And you truely need to talk about your fears Reubin. The reason why you need to talk about them and let them out is that you need to hear constant reasurance that you will now be safe. Your brain needs to hear that from as many as possible. And as far as your mom is concerned, give her time, I am sure she is worried about you and feeling guilty about not knowing, that is normal for a mom to feel. Please make sure you don't blame yourself at all, something many victims do after they tell and no victim is guilty of anything.

Maybe you could sleep with the television on? Or maybe some quiet music. One of the things I do is have the television on where I go to sleep thinking about maybe something on the history channel or something pleasant so I don't think about my past or bad things.

I know that you feel embarrassed, all victims feel that as well, don't give into the negetive keep telling yourself consciously that you did the right thing and things will get better, try very hard to allow yourself to rest, heal and allow the professionals to take over the responsibility of what comes next, that is not your job, you did your job, you told. And keep asking if your mother is getting the help and support she needs to so both of you can bond, overcome this and support each other. Moms are just people too, so you will all have to learn how to bond again and heal, be thankful that can now happen, because the truth does set victims free, it just takes time to heal.

Warm gentle hugs Reuben,
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