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Nov 14, 2011, 09:18 PM
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Member Since: Jan 2009
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PurpleFlyingMonkey,
Thank you PFM for saying. 
I can relate too and yet at this point I can not give you an example. You are likely right where you are supposed to be, is my guess.
I have a connection or lack of one (or two or so) that iappear to be being worked on internally and so there it is. Perhaps there will be a season where I can actually write or talk but not yet.
My desire is to join with others to let you know that we struggle together in a kind of way. Each day I do a few things that creates a kind of a grounding for me, like showering, brushing my teeth, etc. They are kind of routine and boring but so far so good.
Maybe I am walking down a new path as parts are being integrated or waiting to be integrated. Maybe this is 'the me of who I am'. It feels strange sometimes to have the whole world set before me when so many seem to have it settled.
New vistas!  Oh yes ...and yet the old familiar disconnections. Who knew the disconnections would be a kind of comfort, in this regard. I know I still need to work on disconnections but for now I want to see joys (sorrows), love (apathy), peace (turmoil) ...at least for this day.
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