I'm a TERRIBLE person. I push away the only people who have EVER stood bye me IRL... Why do i hurt others? Bcoz I'm scared they're g0ing to abandon me,so i push them away FIRST? That's just sick, and hurtful,and worst of all, i can't even begin to describe why, to someone who's never been paranoid for no reason... I'm really screwed up sometimes, it effing tiring and lonely... Don't worry tho, no matter how hurt and fed up i am,there's no intent behind not wanting to be around... Didn't mean to make you guys worry,just wanted to be honest...