Dear Junerain,

You are very NORMAL for someone that has been wounded or damaged from within, by another person..... hang in there and keep working on the issues and in time (the time is different for everyone) but in time all will be calmer with your mind and the irrational / sinful thoughts that enter.

BTW - please do keep in mind that God meets us exactly were we are, sin and all.... we do not have to get cleaned up to meet Him - He cleans us up from the inside out after He has us in His loving & forgiving arms.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

P.S.
On any MEDS.......................... if not, it might help to get some.