All good points. I am feeling better today, I tend to be better one day, then more down the other. I was just feeling a bit more sensitive yesterday I guess. I do get though that there is a fine line, I, I don't know. I can't describe my mood exactly yesterday other than to say I was feeling frustrated by that gentle reminder, but I sort of understand it a bit more. I am not necessarily suicidal, I just think about 'what is I wasn't here anymore?" more oten some days- I would never actually want to kill myself. I would sooon distract myself by getting engrossed in a good computer game before I get serious about that. I know my life has had it's up's and downs, but I know I have a lot to be thankful about- there are many who are far less fortunate than I. I try to remind myself of that whenever I get too hard on myself and remain humble. Sleep helps too. Often time in the morning I feel better.