Hello My Friends,
I should be so appreciated if you rescue me. I want to know what is my "Mental Disorder"?
Since my childhood I was the best one in my school, all of the time I was getting good marks and I was the first person in my school. This process continued till getting Diploma. After that when I started university courses I fell in love with one girl, she told me "I love you", but I couldn’t understand what does it mean? Loving was meaningless for me. Some months later she left me and I got So Sensitive emotions about loving, I could feel loving and be loved. But she had gone, at that time I was so thirsty of being loved. So I was getting thirstier about being loved. I tried another relationships and girlfriends, but I couldn’t get “Be Loved Feeling”. At university, my courses marks were getting down; I haven’t been the first one among my classmates. I was feeling that I am getting weaker and weaker. I lost my self-confidence. So far, whenever I have fallen in love with one girl, only I was begging her to tell me that she loves me. I am addicted getting this feeling beside another girl. I don’t know “why I feel comfortable when I am thinking about my calamity and humility.” I haven’t any motivation for life; I just love listening calm music like as Chris De Burgh and think about my grief. If I know what kind of “Mental Disorder” I have gotten, as soon as possible I’ll search about it and read any article for treating myself.
Meanwhile I am so interested in Psychcentral.com
Looking forward for your kind replies.
Thanks a lot in advance.
Best Wishes.

PS: I am 24 years old and at the moment I am conscript. My university field was civil engineering BS.