I understand your pain. I am embarrassed and ashamed myself right now. Really bad. My family doesn't understand and I have no friends and no one I can be honest with or talk to. I am manic right now. I jump from being angry to crying all day. Yesterday I woke up mad and suddenly I was so happy and spent the rest of the day laughing at everything. Today I am jumpy and nervous. You are not alone now. We have people here we can be honest with and get support from. Hang in there. This time will pass.