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PurpleFlyingMonkeys · Nov 15, 2011, 08:18 AM

Thank you all so so so much for your replies! They were so very helpful! I felt like I was going crazy, that my mind was going haywire but all of you... You're all such strong amazing people and to see that you (although I am sad that anyone has to) can relate to what I am going through helps so much! DPS Hunny and Purple, you've been around here for a long time and your posts are always genuine intellectual and so kind so thank you so much! I think the world of all of you and to hear you can relate, makes me feel much much much less crazy and much better about this. It's still scary and during those times it's still going to drive me crazy but right now, and for the time in between I don't think I'm going to feel so crazy any more

I get moments as well where I will be thinking something but not saying it. The thought runs across my mind but I don't intend on saying it. But sometimes my intention just doesn't happen. I catch myself saying it and the tone in my voice is changed slightly. I hear myself saying it but I'm not saying it. But it's my thought that is being said? Another strange thing that happens. I guess that could be related to DID as well. I was dx'd with it but my mind goes back and forth with whether I believe it or not because it seems my mom kind of got some sort of pleasure (although that's not a good word for it) out of things being wrong with me. Like now because I've had one seizure she wants to argue that the doctors may be wrong about them and I'm probably epileptic and will have them again. I've only had one... Way to be supportive mom! I love her though, she means no harm. I'm getting off topic now...

Things like that happened when my t was trying to get me co conscious. But at that time they weren't my thoughts that were being said. They were just words from someone else. I would hear myself say something but I didn't say it and never thought it... Now these things being said are becoming my thoughts but without my will to say them... It's another strange thing... I want to reply to all of the above posts but don't want to make everyone have to read a long post so I will post them all in different threads! Thanks again to everyone!