Thank you for your reply dragonfly. I've never thought of using photos to help. When I feel so disconnected I can be looking at their face, hugging them even but just can't feel that connection, can't remember the connection. I never considered photos but it's definately worth a shot. We're moving tomorrow... Well gotta put a hold on the replies. As I typed that the apartments just called and said the paper work isn't complete and we might not be able to move until Thursday so I have to go get this figured out because we have no place to stay tomorrow night. I will be back soon to reply to everyone else, gotta get this apartment thing done.