I'm shaky. My T just called and asked if I could come 2 hours later today because she has a doctor's appointment that came up. She's not sick, she said. If I couldn't come later, she would reschedule her appointment. It kind of screws up my day, but I said okay because I figure they must have had a cancellation.

The thing is, I was so worried about her dying all week, and now this happened. I know my fears are irrational, but I'm scared!! I'm also scared because I hurt all over, and I'm worried about my own health. I was just at the dr. but that was for my virus, which is better now. Now I just hurt all over and have heartburn, but I don't think it's my heart. I know this belongs in another forum--the physical stuff, but you guys are my friends.

The good part is that she got all my emails and says it's of course, not TMI. She wants to do EMDR, of course...sigh...I told her I'd rather do IFS. She says it's young stuff. At least I know it's okay.

But I'm so panicky now, and depressed. I have something to do tonight after my session and won't have time to relax or eat first, though it's better if I don't eat. I feel like crying!! I have some places to go, hopefully that will help me calm down, starting in 2 hours from now.