Gossip- damn it to the under world!!- I swear I see so much crap on TV "you are not the father"..... If I myself watch too much of that, I can get wrapped up with thoughts of my relationship (I am a girl though! lol so mine is the other way around, but then I have had bad things and known people to cheat sadly). It is something that is real, you are smart and know that- thus if it is real it could happen to someone close to you- would that not make sense on why you may think on it?

We are yet humans, and some are dumb humans that make mean things happen. (that is to be funny I hope).

But just because the outside world of others, they have this life- does not mean you have to bring it into yours

Sure it is ok to be curious- but not too curious on things from others right?

I am sorry I can't give you much advice, I am sorry I even replied in a dx place that I don't fit, but I read your post and was curious,, but to say "let it fly out the window" does not help i am sure.

I do wish you well! Hopefully these thoughts will escape you-- perhaps read an article of something you are interested in that is positive