I can understand if a person has some serious issues in their lives why they become attached to T. T is a person of safety and of guidance.

I can understand if emotions become too volatile and need some outside help in regulation. Then, of course, a T is invaluable.

I can understand if a person has experienced terrible trauma in their lives and need a helping hand to learn to move past the pain they've experienced. A T will be the sympathetic ear and the soothing voice.

I can understand if a person lives a life of upheaval with family or friends and needs the calming reassurance of a T. The T will help bring some stability to their thinking.

I can understand if a person is afflicted with unhealthy compulsions and must have help in redirecting those impulses. A T has the training and experience to help transform those dysfunctional actions.

I can understand when debilitating depression hits a person and their T is the only guiding light for them. The person in that pit of blackness needs their T to be a lighthouse and bring them in to safety.

I can understand that when a person is in so much emotional pain that they're subject to sui thoughts or SI, they must rely on T for their own safety. It is necessary.

I can understand the existential angst that many suffer from. Talking to T can be an outlet for their confusion and fear.

I can understand when fear and anxiety overwhelm a person. Their T can help them become grounded and less fearful.

But me, I have few problems. I suffer from little. What I do suffer from is mostly self-generated and minor in comparison to the terrible suffering that so many are undergoing.

So, why do I feel this incredible attachment to T? It makes no sense. I've studied attachment issues in therapy and have read Wallin's book many times but I still don't understand how it relates to me.

T has been gone now for 19 days and I canceled our next appointment for Nov. 23rd. I don't want to see her. But, I'm also desperate to see her. WTF! I feel very conflicted about it and it wouldn't take much for me to quit therapy period.

With few issues and biggest issue seemingly attachment to T, it seems like it would be best to end the relationship with her. She's helped me resolve the major reason I began therapy so maybe it's time to quit.

Because, MY ATTACHMENT TO T MAKES NO SENSE!!!!!