Okay, I dropped off a note after work tonight. I don't think I'll hear anything until the next appointment--a looooooooooooooooooooong 9 days away! I would love to talk to him sooner. I gave an idea of what happened in the letter and said that I didn't want to go into all the details. I admitted taking OTC vitamins/supplements before. I said that I haven't really been eating much of anything. I told him that the thoughts I had were telling me to do "whatever it takes" to feel thin again. I said that I was afraid to talk to him about it and that I was kind of embarrassed, too. The letter was 1 full page, typed. I included a small hand-written update on just today that admitted I was hungry and wanted to eat, but felt that I didn't want to and didn't need to, that I didn't care if I lose weight, it feels like thinner is better, and that I have been scared about money lately. I think I've lost maybe 5 pounds. I also mentioned in the letter about being online talking to someone (in other words each person here). I also said that I promised someone that I would at least write and drop off a note to him. I don't feel that I was scolded before, it's actually kind of nice to have a firm reminder. I do miss my T though and can't wait till our next appointment.