Thankyou everyone. Hannah, i don't work on anything with her. i think she's pretty useless but i never say. i just sit there, she asks how i feel, then a few questions with awkward silences in between them. i hate it. Thankyou everyone for being so understanding it means more than you no. Im just trying to keep going. i also found.out yesterday an uncle (i used to know when i was younger butbhavnt seen in years) has also got cancer, but they said there's nothing more they can do, so he went home to die today. this makes me sad, but also makes me even more scared for my grandad who i AM close to. what are the chances!? its like as soon as my depression starts to get better after a horrible year, i find out they've got cancer. its almost as if nothing wants me to get better.