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I think of this stuff as well. I always said when I was young that I wanted to live to 70 and then I wanted to kill myself or die..whatever. I did not like the aging body and loss that people experience when they are old.
I am 67 now and both my parents died at 70 and 71. Note that their deaths had nothing to do with the #70 as I thought of this long before they died.
I know its my depression talking. I feel even with good meds that I have a low-grade depression sort of like a fever..Not really all there but still rearing its ugly head.
I don't like this aging garbage. I have been alone for seven years and thats way too long. I have a lot of arthritis and have a lot of pain and difficulty. Yes I definately think of leaving early but will I?..................... Probably not because I am a survivor, and I really basically like life in general. Life though is, and can be, super hard. I keep going though!
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Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live.
Oscar Wilde
Well Behaved Women Seldom Make History - Laurel Thatcher Ulrich
The road to hell is paved with good intentions.
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