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Originally Posted by Perna
That's not "Life" and living, that's just existing. You cannot compare yourself with other people because you cannot be in their lives, cannot even see into their lives very well and have no way to put your "self"/personality and experiences into their life or their "self"/personality and experiences into your life.
It could be, for you, a waste (I won't say "obvious", if only because I'm stubborn :-) of time and emotional energy, only you can decide that but I ask, what else are you using your emotional energy on? I want to use my emotional energy to connect to my Life and other people, not to keep everything "stable" and try to hold the status quo, which we cannot do as, as you point out, life goes on. You cannot stand still and using emotional energy to try to hold things so they seem "okay" is, to me  a horrible waste of time and emotional energy. |
Perna, I appreciate you engaging me while I'm spewing out in a self-pitying rant.
I see your point and I could have argued such a point myself. Well, let me put it this way, I can kinda see your point in regards to me through this fog of confusion.
How to 'connect to my Life and other people'? Yeah, I have been failing at that. So maybe working with T, no matter why I'm attached, will help in that arena. But sometimes it feels like I'm just swirling around waiting to go down the drain. Just like the water that never goes anywhere but around and down and around and down, this sensation is mine sometimes.
Holding everything 'stable', you're right, takes tremendous energy. I sometimes feel like I'm a ticking bomb just ready to explode. And not knowing what will ignite it is exhausting also.
So, in some ways it doesn't matter why attachment to T but you're implying that's o.k. Go with the emotion and use it in session to gain more understanding about how I function in the world NOW! Answering 'why' is not that critical, it seems?