I know not everyone believes in EMDR but my T says it will change me, and I have to admit, I think it has.
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But, in the end, what difference does it make? So, sure - this or that happened. Big whoopdedoo!! So what? Okay, as Wallin calls it, maybe some small trauma (small t). so what? Then because of that, attachment to T? so what? So, what is gained by understanding? I'm beginning to see now that it makes no sense to try to make sense of it all. It doesn't matter. It really doesn't matter.
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EMDR goes beyond understanding an event or a feeling. It makes it go away, or at least not as distressful. It works for small traumas. So, if you wanted to feel unstuck (but you don't seem stuck so I'm digressing I suppose) you could use EMDR. I just wanted to say that I agree that understanding does not always mean healing!!
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It's a superbly devious way for my ego to gain extra gratification. I mean, what is more fun that to be self-absorbed? For someone like me it is the ultimate high. When I ask myself what I want to do for fun, the most pleasurable option that comes to mind is to engage in what I used to call self-reflection but now label emotional masturbation. Somehow I need to walk away from this. But I know I won't. I'm too addicted to my narcissistic ways. I wonder if other addiction healing modalities would work for my pathetic addiction. Even writing this post is feeding my ego driven need for 'pay attention to me!'
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I relate to the above 100%!!! It's "fun" for me too. You're not pathetic, though. What is important to me, is WHY am I so addicted to needing the attention of this forum (I get a high from posting and seeing my threads getting responses) and of my T. It fulfills needs and the purpose of my therapy is to try to accept, deal with, and find other ways to meet those needs other than therapy for the rest of my life. Can you relate to that at all? Or am I missing the boat?