I think I understand now the 'sense' of being attached to T. Thinking about it more today has brought back thoughts I have had in the past. It's only in her office that I can be me. It's only there that I can talk about anything. There is no need to worry about social conventions. There is no concern about walking the tightrope of managing relationships. It is only with her that I can talk about anything.

When I feel like I would burst with emotions, she is there to listen and to understand. Now that I have experienced what it's like to be able to share anything and everything with another human being, it has kinda become a necessity. I don't know why. Maybe when everything settles down someday, that need won't be so imperative.

So, just having someone to talk to is what makes my attachment to T what it is. There is no need to delve into my past - the present situation is sufficient to explain my need for her.

I look forward to November 30th. It will have been 35 days keeping myself cooped up.