Counseling for the weak?...yeah, alright buddy.

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad - hopefully writing out your feelings here helps a bit. Regarding SAD - what region do you live in? While this isn't the one single factor responsible for the illness, it can make preexisting depression worse. I have mild depression year-round, but it's worse in winter because of SAD. It gets dark in Michigan anywhere from 4 to 5pm during the wintertime, even earlier in the UP.