The visit from my in-laws went pretty well.....better than i thought it was going to be. I found out yesterday that I didn't get the job. I guess I am stuck in the toxic place that I am currently at. My anxiety and depression keeps getting worse, having suicidal thoughts now. Thankfully I see my T tomorrow. I am nervous because I wasn't thinking when I scheduled the session, and I scheduled it for the same time that I have a meeting at work. I have to tell my supervisor today that I can't come to the meeting tomorrow.