my old T labelled me as BPD (borderline personaility disorder) i read all the things but i can only relate to some of them -

i was going through intense emotional; feelings after beign attacked and getting PTSD as a present from it ...

after the SA as a child i shut downmy emotions - all my emotions for over 40 years .. i was a shadow person - making all the moves but not really existing - i have very few memories of most of my life

after i was attacked - the last time lol - well not actually the last time sigh..but anyway - after - it was like all my emotions came back at once - once i started therapy and some of my memories

i disassociate and lose time

so what im thinking is am I BPD or just damaged cos of the past....

any thoughts?