After I got married the first time Iost alot of "good" friends who appearantly thought since I got married I was dead. That was hard and I went thru a time of depression and lack of self-confidence. I was so hurt that I closed off from alot of people and became very angry and scared to make friends. When I decided I didn't want to be that way anymore I opened myself up (after counseling) to start life over and make new friends. It took some time and I got screwed over by people along the way but I didn't give up. I guess I learned that friends come and go and I expect it so it doesn't hurt too much. I still give my heart but I know what's coming. Kinda cynical? Yes, I agree but history seems to repeat itself for me. I have made some nice friends who when I look at them I realize what a rare bunch of women they are but they are kind. After I moved to Norway there were a few that again thought I died so I never hear from them. That surprised me quite a bit actually but there are 2 from the states that have hung in there with me. I also have my new friend here in Norway but that is because she kept trying and calling and visiting. I was so depressed at teh time I just didn't have it in me. She is the one who has helped me alot and actually I believe saved my life. Friends can be friends for a moment, a season or a lifetime they say. I just try to enjoy the moment I can share with someone and move on when it's over.
Sorry I haven't been a real good friend here lately. I have been stopping in but not replying too much. Feeling a little down and not much liek being online.
Hope everyone has a good weekend,
Heidu
Heidu