OK - here it goes........................ hope this is alright.

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I just feel so alone right now.... for just two days before my sisters husband had gotten killed in a car accident I had made my own PLAN to no longer be here... the date, time, place and how had already been decided.
I now thank God that He used my time away in helping my sister to also save ME!!! - and yet I suffer alone in pain for no one and I mean no one even knows what might of been, or what might not of been any more (me).... well, no one, except for the ones I just told here.

While I feel very safe at this moment - I still feel as though I need a FRIEND to talk this all out with.... for I hate the many inner wounds / fears that left me in such a despairing way just weeks ago.

> > > > > > > Maybe that is what I am feeling the need to run and hide from, the things and/ or people that seem to evoke such awful feelings with in ME? - the wounded me that is empty.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -