He is very hyper often. It was hard for his to sit in one place a lot. So I would say that the on guard stuff is present. He would have bad dreams at night. But he would say the devil was coming to get him when I asked what they were about.

But before the fights.... well sometimes he would be in a totally good mood and then WHAM. Of course sometimes he would be in a bad mood to begin with but that was rare because usually he is very sweet and in a happy mood. He is not depressive. In fact 99 % cheerful.

It has been very difficult for me. I thought that I could help and I have ended up really really having a hard time. He ended up telling me last night again that he was not cut out for love or mairrage or children. So I let him go. I fell extremely alone and desolate and sad but my life has been a roller coaster for six months now and I need some sleep.

Thank you for the kind and thoughtful advice. Outside input is always the best because it is detached.

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