Anyway, I had this awful dream about her last night that was so contrary to what ACTUALLY happened in session today when I was honest. It makes me want to tell her some other things, mostly so that there will be one soul in the world to hear these facts and feelings from me, so that I can finally, actually give a voice to ME. I know I'm not totally changed or anything, but ... this is a new idea to me that I've never really had before.