<font color="red"> </font> Tomorrow is my oldest son's birthday. It's been 2 years now he's been gone. It is so difficult to comprehend life without him. He was just 22, tomorrow is his 25th birthday .
I don't know if my other two sons and I will make it, we are all suffering from such depression, anxiety and all the indecision and motivational issues that come with it. I believe that had a lot to do with my son's suicide, but it's too late for us to help him, and now how do we help ourselves? How do I help the other two when I can't even get me together? There is so much quilt on my part, I think I passed this depression gene to them. I so fear that I will not be able to pull it together to help them and they will be lost too (in one way or another).
Dear God, hold him close, please let him know how much he is loved, comfort him and let him know he is home.