You make that sound like a moderately acceptable therapy goal, pachyderm Thanks!

I don't know, maybe I'm just looking for validation and this is just part of my overall struggle, but... finding a way to frame this stupid struggle so that I can bring it up with my therapist and feel like I'm talking about something vaguely legitimate is important! It is nice to hear that maybe what I want could be okay, even though I can't pin it down to any one experience or something I want to talk about. It's a lot of stuff. I just want to talk. My goal is to feel comfortable talking. To take ownership of my feelings and to be confident enough to share them. To let go of those imagined watchful and judging eyes...