Pressure is from me and from my work and my parents and husband. Last time I had ECT I got better really fast now I'm not better after it. Less depression but very high anxiety. I have been on Seroquel since 2004 I can only tolerate a small dose. Even 25mg puts me right to sleep. I take that as need and 50 at night. Anxiety has been high all day but I had a nice talk with my husband about things and he was trying to tell me things I could do to get better. he meant well, but it just makes me feel like I have to get better tomorrow and I can't right now i dont think. My short term disability is running out too. Thanks for your replies i appreciate it a lot.