MCL, I can SO relate to this post. It's frustrating, really.

Each of my T's have considered me to be an introspective person, almost to a fault. I tend to look inward, instead of outward for answers AND blame. I am definitely a work in progress.

I don't know if you ever feel this way but I did tell my T once that, sometimes, being around those NOT in therapy but in need of therapy...makes me want to act out even more. It becomes too much for me. Too overwhelming. I get this...if you can't beat 'em, join 'em mentality. I am exhausted trying to do work IN therapy, only to leave my T's office and be surrounded by MORE issues...outside of therapy. I don't see see...ANY. WAY. OUT.

I understand.