Squiggle, I have talked about every single teensy tiny embarrassing aspect of sex, masturbation, that you can think of. My T always makes me feel just fine about it. He has a ridiculously impressive poker face. I think that if it is bothering you, get it out. That is what therapy is for, and it always makes me feel better to remember that they listen to this stuff constantly. I am sure that she will not be surprised by whatever it is that you choose to put out there.

And, I agree with what you said about the ways that masturbation can become destructive. As with anything, it can become a way of coping, covering up, distracting, etc . . . It is not bad in itself, at all. But, it can become dark and damaging if used for the wrong reasons, and/or instead of facing other things.