Seaswept ... I had to laugh at your "paid friend
I found out we are losing our health insurance at the end of the year..when i told my T he said " you look like a deer in the headlights. Stop flipping out ... Ill see you at no charge " needless to say my mouth hit the floor ...

It bothers me something awful that he would do this and not get paid ,,, hes told me before" Im a really complicated bipolar patient " i just looked at him and we both laughed ... I realized right then that he was indeed the only person that I can count on 100% at this point . He really understands bipolar ..

My visit today with him was just a kind of review of how i am doing now versus back in march ..I have indeed come a long way..Im currently changing meds so we both agreed since i hadnt slept well and was pretty irratated at the world we would just see how far I have come in a relativly "short time" .. We usally hit therapy hard but today i didnt have it in me and he knew this med change has me in a funk ..

I wish I had more real friends in the REAL WORLD .. but looking back over my life I have never been one to have a whole crowd of friends ..its way tooo overwhelming to me ..

I have noticed I ramble on ALOT .. sorry to any of you that read all this mess LOL

I sure hope the new med helps me focus my thoughts and actions a little better than I do now ..Its almost embarrasing how it takes me forever to get my thought out ...Like right now ...UGH !

Heres to all of us having eachother to support ,, It really helps