Thanks for your suggestions Sanguinaire. I have no idea who jay-z is, but listening to music is a good idea. Usually I do use distraction methods like you said to cope with it and stop it getting bad. After I had my kids though it's just been different to my previous experiences with depression... Seems like it's been a long time since I've really been happy. I can use the distraction things, but underneath it I'm still sad, I'm just ignoring it. Been like that ever since my son was born. Lately I've just started to get sick of it and it's getting on top of me and I don't feel like trying anymore. All I seem to be able to do is get to an ok level... not happy.. just in the middle.

Also, I would go on about how hot I am, but I don't really like talking about the weather that much. Well there you go... A joke. A bad one, but it's a joke anyway.