Amandalouise-

It's not the "label" I'm looking for. I'm moreso looking to be understood. He's my psychiatrist, he is treating me and he's denying in total that this stuff exists for me. I'm not interested in him knowing all parts of me, or understanding all parts of me. I don't care about labels, that's why I didn't bother to name all the other illnesses I've been diagnosed with. Because who cares? I don't.

It's not the label. It's the difference between treating illness A and treating Illness B. Basically he's treating a schizophrenia-type diagnosis. So he's going to keep upping my anti psychotics till the voices go away. But they'll never go away. It requires a much smaller dose for the anxiety under the dissociation. Currently I sleep around 16 hours a day, due to my current medication regime. I am on so many medications. I like the mood stabilizer, it works well. I'm okay with smaller doses of anti psychotics. But I'm currently on a mood stabilizer, two high dose anti psychotics, Valium, and Effexor and my psychiatrist HATES using drugs. Most of the other clients are on 1 or 2 medications( we all know each other). He's looking for the success of someone with schizophrenia, in a patient with DID. It makes no sense. Therapy/psych drugs helps DID not just massive amounts of psychiatric drugs.

And it's not just that, but I want to be understood. It's not fun being called a liar. For anything. Whether it be something small, or something that effects your entire life. It doesn't feel good to be misunderstood in any spectrum of life. It's not the label. It's what happens under the label. I've been with this team for going on four years, I think I deserve to have them understood what's gone on in these four years.

Sanguinaire -

SophiaG- She knows he doesn't believe me, or any of it. But what can she do? Force him to believe it?

kasva- thank you kasva I am glad somebody understands... it makes me feel warm.